I've lost the desire of living.

I thought you understand me,
I thought I may tell you everything that about me,
I thought you will not make me upset.
I was wrong, you will never know how disappointed I am right now.
Can you feel the pain I am feeling now?
Can you hear the crush sound of heartbreaking?
I cannot be without him,
I can't.
why did you do this to me?
I know you're concerned.
Can you find a right way to help me with it?
I've let everyone down,
but you let me down.
I am frustrated.
I get enough of this world.
Let me go please.